Confessions of a Graduate: Part 1
Hello people, I want to thank you for reading these lines. I hope that you can get something out of it. My reasons for typing these words are complex and difficult to explain, that’s why I am doing this. I hope I can make that clear with these blogs and if I can’t, I will like to invite you into my thoughts.
Anyways, think of me as the person who sits behind the spotlight watching how the world rolls and really wishing not to get involved in anything that will require me to be the center of attention. I know, I know… why would you want to do something if you don’t want to be the center of attention? I don’t have an answer for that yet…maybe because I enjoy doing activities as much as the next person but taking the spotlight is such a struggle to me that I avoid the feeling all together. Jim Carrey said once, “Your need for acceptance can make you invisible in this world”.
I think a lot of people can relate to this because you want to fit in so bad somewhere that you will do anything for that acceptance. I am not saying I will never accept the regards for doing something in my life, but what I am saying is that when it comes to get the responsibility for major decisions in my life for some reasons I will usually come up short…why? That’s what I am trying to figure out.
Like many other people my age and younger generations, the responsibilities of everyday can be overwhelming. Go to school, get good grades, make friends, fit in, meet a special person, social media life, have a plan for the future, have a career, take care of the planet, keep up with mainstreamed media etc. etc. etc. For me, there was a time when all my attention was dedicated to school and chilling around …you know that time when you are young and naïve. That time when you think that you can do anything just by saying that, but in reality is just like the politicians on TV “all talk and no action” not because you didn’t want to do it but because you didn’t know how to…
Maybe there was not a mentor or someone that could guide you to your goal. Again, I know it seems that what I am describing may sound like a bunch of excuses but when you go inside someone’s life everything seems more clear. There is nothing wrong with having that kind of thinking when you are young …
In my opinion, I feel that’s the best driver there is, to actually accomplish everyday tasks and goals. The feeling that you can do anything and not second guess yourself all the time because of your useless fears that you pick up along the way is something that adults can be jealous of young people. I will continue my path on finding myself and try to challenge myself more, that’s another blog right there… “challenge yourself”… anyways…thank you for your attention and until next blog.